Thursday, November 25, 2010
"Tonight, there's only you and me." -maybe in my dreams :)
Said I'll sleep but i suddenly felt hungry.... I thought you should know... I still have feelings for you... But my modus operandi is now restricted to a sick facade and 暗恋ing. I'm being so pathetic, because I love you.
:/
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Hey Girl,
I'm sorry. I think I'm just pissed. All along i thought I'll get you straight away... I didn't even consider your feelings. I'm Sorry.
I was selfish.
This is going to be hard. But from now on I've got to start thinking of you as a normal friend. As you want... I'll just keep my feelings to myself.
Monday, November 22, 2010
WE'RE FRIENDS.
With anyone else in this whole umiverse, its a good sentence, good statement. Anyone else besides you, My Love.
Sorry for ruining your birthday... And i shouldn't have compared myself with him. I'm way lousier... Not even deserving any menion...
Maybe I'm paranoid.
I thought she knew. I've got a low self opinion. I fear losing her.
She said I wouldn't be able to see from her perspective. I can't...
She likes me but have't been single for a long while. I thought it would only be a few days..
Guess I'm wrong...
Does she know the feelings i have for her? :/ I even had a taste of being with her...
I'm so afraid of losing, I think, I cause my own downfall.
No one said this would be easy. No one said it was so heartwrenching either.
I'm lost. Due to my own stupidity.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
"One minute I held the key, next the walls were closed on me."
Baby,
I am troubled and you already know.
You don't know my trouble, so here's to letting you know.
Remember back in those mugging days, not so long ago?
What was my promise? What were our plans?
You see, back then you were with Him, but your heart wasn't.
I was there waiting, you told me to hang in there.
We were in love(I hope we still are now.), it was so hot, so passionate.
Said you'd settle everything after our O's...
We then came so close, I believed I was in heaven.
But after awhile of being single, you seem to want more.
You seem to miss your other friends, you seem to have no need for me.
Now, lying on my bed in the deep of the night, unable to sleep a wink, though my body is at the brink, I ask myself, do you love me?
How can i forgot what we had? It was short and oh so sweet.
But being the greedy guy I am, I want a Long-and-Sweet.
So to end this rant and to cut the long story short, I need you, I love you. Please don't forget my feelings. I can let you have the freedom, I dont really mind. Just let me have you, the one i knew from not so long ago. Like just THREE days ago.
We like each other, its amazing we can make this so unpleasant, so unbearable. Can we change this for the better? I dont mean for us to be together, but to revert back to 18th November and before. This hurts.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Tomorrow will be my last "O" level paper. Bio paper 1... Too late i came to realise, i'm gonna leave Manjusri soon. I've officially graduated, and the last school function i'm attending is the Graduation Evening. Would probably miss my teachers, example Mr Fahmy's weird habits and way of carrying himself, Mr I's sniffing, Mr Chew's lessons, Mr Gui's LAME jokes, and Mdm Tay's final encouragements... Oh, and beloved Mdm Cheah's screaming! :x haha our dramatic English teacher... I will miss all the slacking and fooling around! :( JC must work hard :/
And in the end, i also found out something else. She's the start and end of my secondary school life <3