Sunday, September 28, 2008
Em0ing again...
L feels that he had failed yet again... wth... That's the pain of liking someone who may not like you back... L is so damned depressed... He's inconsolable... Its so exasperating... He cant blame her... Its her decision... Her will... He can still try, and may succeed, but he's very disheartened... The coming exams aren't helping him get his mind off her...
L needs her....
L needs her to fill this empty hole in his life...
L is begging her,
you, to help him... be with him... he cant take it much longer...I Love You but you dont know... how should i tell you? howhowhowhowhow???plz come to me... fall into my arms...please...L
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Hais... So much crappy and unwanted stuff happened happened on thursday of L's life...
His FT, Mr M, had joked that 2C littered the rubbish that was thrown in the classroom but it was those who had went to the classroom for oral... And those people were 2E's girls and some from 2D... some of his classmates were then upset, which in turn upsetted some of his friends...
Then JieyinG was abit emo... he saw on her blog... but he knew she was not the only one...
For himself, he had gotten LRC on topof the CHLRC he served... wtf... L hates that nosy TSS... freakin' m0ron she is... crap her...
L did not know why, but he was sad that JieyinG and some of his classmates feel sad...
L wishes to tell anyone who reads this that
MR M WAS IN A BAD MOOD AS EDZUAN HAD CALLED HIM GAY...L feels sorry for all...
and i love you do you know? just can't say it out... i think i'm a coward... and all that...
adios amigos,
L
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Tan Siew Seng...
Just another
mor0n in L's life...
Holy crap- she was such a
***** today... L was sent to
CHLRC just for not changing into school uniform after PE... L and his friend, DC, were sent to
CHLRC but that retard of a teacher,
Tan Siew Seng, had not sent a girl, who did not change too, to the same fate...
Not that it was painful... In fact, it was much more joyful than spending 1 hour listening to her crap... But what was most frustrating was that, it wasn't even her business... Come to think about it, she had been nosing into Mr M (L's form teacher)'s duties... Crap her, he thought...
Then after his
CHLRC, L and DC bumped into that freak of nature,
TSS... She was such a dumb****... She demanded why L and DC were still not changed, adding that they had not learnt their lesson... L was dumbfounded by the dumbness of that question... They had just stepped out of punishment...
L was like ...
__ 0_________o __
lols...
wtclahtssgodielar!!!,
L
Monday, September 22, 2008
L felt better...
He had walked home from school after he had lunch... He could almost feel that swelling disappointment about what had took place that afternoon. He heard that there was to be science consultation that afternoon and wanted to stay behind awhile to ask a few questions but
one of them had said that he and another of his friend was "extra" as they had not informed
before hand...
L thought better than to dwell on the negative side. Perhaps it was all those pleasant events that had kept him from falling to the dark side of himself.
L had found out that Sisiew lives ust opposite him. She was quite suprised that he had walked home... She herself took a bus... L found it amusing... He was, after all, in Wushu, and had gone through things and routines that is far more tiring than a mere 3km walk...
L had gotten a whoopin' 22/30 for his english test... A personal and class(?) best... He thought of typing it out and posting but then was just too lazy...
L was hungry and is gonna have his dinner soon...
So he bids farewell...
Imnotgininupyet...
L
Sunday, September 21, 2008
L.
He was sitting at his study desk. L was watching
Starwars: Return of the Jedi... Only 4 of his
msn contacts are online... None could entertain him at the moment... He decided to blog on about himself...
He bumped into Dean at the
bustop at
aljunied MRT station... The bunch of them ( him and a few other "ear 'oles") were going to get together to do their biology presentation on Sexual Reproduction. He was not bothered with them... His "friend"
Xuan Kai was not going... He had hung up on L a couple of times when L had tried to make head or tail of whether he was going... L felt...
Betrayed?It
hurted when people, especially his "best friend", ignored him... As L typed away recounting, he felt that some of his "friends" would think that he was somewhat
soft to feel like this but he
didn't care... He felt
dejected... That was all that mattered...
All those taunts about him being weak, nerdy,
vegetarian... It was starting to hurt after all his fake indifference... He was sick and tired of it all... He wants to let go and move on...
But it was out of his
power...He went to
HER blog. Found out that she still loves her ex-boyfriend... Felt damned sad... L knew it was an hopeless situation... But he can't force himself to give up... No, not L, like what his sis had said... Love was not something you should give up on... So he'll wait... Wait for her...
nvgonnagiveup,
L
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Yes... exams are here, and won't be gone until about another month's time. He is stresssed up, yet not doing much in preparation for his end of year exams... He feels that there is some wrong in what his form teacher had said, about the "final lap" being all about yourself as an individual. He thinks that it is just too selfish... But this was what the world was like... Majority of the humans, are selfish.
In fact, he thinks that everyone, even he himself, was kind of selfish. His teachers, his classmates and "friends"... He is confused, not knowing what to do... Was all that he had thought about, all that he did and have done useless?
He does'nt want to keep ranting on and on negatively, following the lead of this whole dark world... He wants to break free... Instead he is constricted to his puny body, uncapable of doing anything... following one of his friend's attempt, he had considered ending this nonsense before but his thoughts were brave, but his heart hurts when he thought how his loved ones will hurt for him.
Why is the world like that? So ruthless, cruel, and worst of all, filled with all those rotting lies, deceit, and BETRAYAL... He got stirred emotionally as he came to this... He felt betrayed... By his class... It was all lies... that unity... it was scam... it was nothing... as his Form Teacher had said, it was every man for himself... ... Yeah, so let the battle begin, he thought...