Sunday, August 30, 2009
The way ahead is shrouded with mist. I have a slight confusion in my feelings of Meng.
Is she serious?
I don't really know. Thats only one of the factors contributingto my stress. So many more areas and aspects contributing to my distress. I feel so small. So unsure of myself. So unlike before.
I kinda wish i was the old overconfident me again. The one that smiles foolishly in the face of tests, exams, and new concepts, not giving a damn.
The me I erased in hope of a better attitude to carry on with in life.
Seems like its a mistake.
Btw. my results:
Math -Full
aMaths -32/40
Bio -forgot==
Chem -30/50(crap)
Physics -42/50(nothing to be proud of. was badly done in my opinion)
SS -16/30
History -17/30
EL -??
CL -??
hm. Had a retarded session with CHANkwantong the other day for not doing TONS of CL homework.
I realised I was in the wrong. But still Chan's attitude pissed me off. It still pisses me now.
He likes to thin he's never wrong, to act like he's the boss. Chan the Boss. haha. Chan the Balls more like. He and his bloody jiaobin.
ARGH.
Forget about it. That's not helping.
ANYWAYS. The reflections.
ft. LJM's post...
"To: Mdm Cheah
I was thinking about this a few weeks or days ago. First impression counts. Somehow, I don't think this apply to you from my point of view. I remembered the first day in Secondary 3. A couple of us was late for your lesson. You scolded us. In my heart, I was thinking what a bitch you were. The sound of the bell was so soft that who could have heard it over the din made by the Secondary 3? Anyway, you have been teaching us for like 8 months already. Just the first few months, I could see that everything I thought about you was totally wrong. You're an asshole when you scold. But when you are in good mood(which is almost every time I see you), you are so humorous that you can made the whole class laugh. Now, I'm forever looking forward to your lessons. Because of you(and Miss Sophia Yap), I'm in love with English now. I'm aiming for a B3 for my 'O' level paper. If I can achieve better, I'll be glad to do so!"
Hm. I so agree with that. Great minds think alike, but fools seldom differ. Seems like the latter is quite true.
I kinda realised Mdm Cheah's seemingly "bitchy" action then was just a bluff. That and her menancing glare whenever one forgets his homework.
Its just to make us scared. I believe Mdm Cheah is actually a nice person,but wants to control us better.
So that we would take her seriously.
Holy shit.
Do you realise how pathetic that is now?
Do you realise how unspeakable we are as students?
To need a teacher to scare us before giving respect.
To behave otherwise to teachers who seem tame.
Like Mr Gui.
He's kind on the inside and out.
His jokes relieves the boredom of lessons.
We are the lucky generation.
可是我们就是身在福中不知福。
老师本来就是该尊敬的。
我们不是这样。
老师不凶我们就欺负。
老师凶我们就恨老师。
你们这样做要老师怎么做人啊?
Haiz. Wanna improve my CL, so I'm starting to blog in chinese too.
....
On to my doubts.
*Whats wrong Laihong?
*Did we do something wrong?
*Is she angry, jealous or what?
&AhMeng
*I dunno how to say la.
*I might over-reacting.
*But I'm very scared she's just playing with me.
*I think I don't really understand her.
*I don't think she realises how much i hurt when she does that.
*I can't stand it....
*I'm sorry.
*Still waiting for her to be online. She said ok but she's not here yet.
Moving on now. I'm gonna off my com soon. Waiting another 30mins to an hour.
So I gonna end here.
Till the next time,
Bye;再见;sayonara;
&
Thankkyouu;谢谢;aligato
L