Saturday, September 20, 2008
Yes... exams are here, and won't be gone until about another month's time. He is stresssed up, yet not doing much in preparation for his end of year exams... He feels that there is some wrong in what his form teacher had said, about the "final lap" being all about yourself as an individual. He thinks that it is just too selfish... But this was what the world was like... Majority of the humans, are selfish.
In fact, he thinks that everyone, even he himself, was kind of selfish. His teachers, his classmates and "friends"... He is confused, not knowing what to do... Was all that he had thought about, all that he did and have done useless?
He does'nt want to keep ranting on and on negatively, following the lead of this whole dark world... He wants to break free... Instead he is constricted to his puny body, uncapable of doing anything... following one of his friend's attempt, he had considered ending this nonsense before but his thoughts were brave, but his heart hurts when he thought how his loved ones will hurt for him.
Why is the world like that? So ruthless, cruel, and worst of all, filled with all those rotting lies, deceit, and BETRAYAL... He got stirred emotionally as he came to this... He felt betrayed... By his class... It was all lies... that unity... it was scam... it was nothing... as his Form Teacher had said, it was every man for himself... ... Yeah, so let the battle begin, he thought...
