Love Lurv Luv

I am a CHAMPION!

2011-03-17T19:00:00.002-07:00

March 17.

Feeling good :) Seeing improvement in my flexibility. I REALLY want to be able to split like Wendy... She is like my role model for flexibility haha. And i have decided. 2011 TKD white belt Poomsae Gold shall be mine. It cant be any other way.

Olive is gonna accept Geek :/ What a disgrace to have lost to a Geek, a Warrior like me :(

Osel. Life is a paradox, a joke, a platform for joy and achievement.

Dream come true not.

2011-03-17T19:00:00.001-07:00

March 16.

Dreamt that I was married, and was not a good father to my two children. Was v sad cos I loved my wife but my wife was damn disappointed with me.

Osel. Must do better than the loser me in the dream.

Late! :/

2011-03-17T18:59:00.001-07:00

March 15.

Was 30min late for tkd! Stupid bus 30 :/ Next time gotta leave hse at 1pm.

Grey on tan ^^

2011-03-17T18:56:00.000-07:00

March 14.

On the way to school for Bio PBL, I saw the truth. That grey on tan is SEXYYY!!!! Karan is not going for TKD at eunos cc :/

Had lunch with Xinyi and Yinshuen after doing PBL. Saw Jiahui. Then went TKD. Quite boring :/

Went home . Slept at 9 :)

Recovery.

2011-03-14T14:34:00.001-07:00

March 13.

A nice dream only makes reality worse in contrast. Dreamt that i was finally called for cheerleading. Woke up knowing I'd never be called.

11:11
Thanks Aziemah. I would really like to be on your yacht.

11:34
When life doesn't give you a boat, make one. When past oppurtunities are wasted, make future oppurtunities count. When past friendships are lost, make new ones.
Never stare into the horizon, looking at the boat you missed.

17:56
Met the Evil Baby from Hell.

22:11
On the bus home I saw a sexy woman. LOL. And realised tt sometimes i shant assume ppl dao me and pms...

Osel. Hold on tight, it's a rollercoaster ride, my life.

p.s. I'm addicted to Cafe by Big Bang

I'm on a boat, and, its going fast , and, ...

2011-03-13T03:39:00.000-07:00

March 12.

Today started out good but my emo genes struck after dinner. In the morning went to mum's shop in CBD. Had a great lunch. Met the china chef, the manager, and a sec two girl from Dunman High. Went home then out for buddhist class. Came back with Granma's dishes. Did PT, bathed, dined. Then i switch on Facebook. I thought it was a crush. Why did i still care about her status. Went berserk on a boatlust rant/rampage. Thanks Madeline, YinShuen and Z herself for putting up with my shit.

How can I take econs? Im not even rational anymore. I NEED A BOAT.

Osel. Need a break, need a boat.

"I don't do dinner & movies, but if I show up at your door, would you give me 1 more minute? Our story was far from finish."

2010-12-05T23:01:00.001-08:00

"I don't do dinner & movies, but if I show up at your door, would you give me 1 more minute? Our story was far from finish."

为何把我们的约会当成爱情的面试？

I miss you.

2010-11-25T06:25:00.000-08:00

"Tonight, there's only you and me." -maybe in my dreams :)

Said I'll sleep but i suddenly felt hungry.... I thought you should know... I still have feelings for you... But my modus operandi is now restricted to a sick facade and 暗恋ing. I'm being so pathetic, because I love you.

:/

2010-11-23T01:45:00.000-08:00

Hey Girl,

I'm sorry. I think I'm just pissed. All along i thought I'll get you straight away... I didn't even consider your feelings. I'm Sorry.

I was selfish.
This is going to be hard. But from now on I've got to start thinking of you as a normal friend. As you want... I'll just keep my feelings to myself.

2010-11-22T13:33:00.000-08:00

WE'RE FRIENDS.

With anyone else in this whole umiverse, its a good sentence, good statement. Anyone else besides you, My Love.
Sorry for ruining your birthday... And i shouldn't have compared myself with him. I'm way lousier... Not even deserving any menion...

Maybe I'm paranoid.

2010-11-22T01:19:00.000-08:00

Maybe I'm paranoid.

I thought she knew. I've got a low self opinion. I fear losing her.
She said I wouldn't be able to see from her perspective. I can't...
She likes me but have't been single for a long while. I thought it would only be a few days..
Guess I'm wrong...

Does she know the feelings i have for her? :/ I even had a taste of being with her...
I'm so afraid of losing, I think, I cause my own downfall.
No one said this would be easy. No one said it was so heartwrenching either.

I'm lost. Due to my own stupidity.

One minute I held the key, next the walls were closed on me

2010-11-21T08:13:00.000-08:00

"One minute I held the key, next the walls were closed on me."

Baby,
I am troubled and you already know.
You don't know my trouble, so here's to letting you know.
Remember back in those mugging days, not so long ago?
What was my promise? What were our plans?
You see, back then you were with Him, but your heart wasn't.
I was there waiting, you told me to hang in there.
We were in love(I hope we still are now.), it was so hot, so passionate.
Said you'd settle everything after our O's...
We then came so close, I believed I was in heaven.
But after awhile of being single, you seem to want more.
You seem to miss your other friends, you seem to have no need for me.
Now, lying on my bed in the deep of the night, unable to sleep a wink, though my body is at the brink, I ask myself, do you love me?
How can i forgot what we had? It was short and oh so sweet.
But being the greedy guy I am, I want a Long-and-Sweet.
So to end this rant and to cut the long story short, I need you, I love you. Please don't forget my feelings. I can let you have the freedom, I dont really mind. Just let me have you, the one i knew from not so long ago. Like just THREE days ago.

We like each other, its amazing we can make this so unpleasant, so unbearable. Can we change this for the better? I dont mean for us to be together, but to revert back to 18th November and before. This hurts.

溱的爱你, Baby.

2010-11-14T06:27:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow will be my last "O" level paper. Bio paper 1... Too late i came to realise, i'm gonna leave Manjusri soon. I've officially graduated, and the last school function i'm attending is the Graduation Evening. Would probably miss my teachers, example Mr Fahmy's weird habits and way of carrying himself, Mr I's sniffing, Mr Chew's lessons, Mr Gui's LAME jokes, and Mdm Tay's final encouragements... Oh, and beloved Mdm Cheah's screaming! :x haha our dramatic English teacher... I will miss all the slacking and fooling around! :( JC must work hard :/

And in the end, i also found out something else. She's the start and end of my secondary school life <3

Love, lurv, luv...

2010-06-15T05:33:00.000-07:00

I love my MADELINE TAN JING YI!!! (MAD Darling xD)

Thanks for everything you have given me, all the love, all your care. In return I'll give you my wholehearted love and more...

I wanna hug you till forever, baby lion...

2010-03-07T06:07:00.000-08:00

Heyy. Had the Most productive Sunday EVER!!! haha all thanks to Adam Khoo motivational workshop. I wanna thank Adam, Danny (nini), and Tracy, and i know the best way is to prove that i can win all you other 20million SPERMZ!!! haha... watch out ppl.

BTW danny damn cool sia * WHEEEERE IS THE BIGSHOW!* xD Kham Yi Ying :x haha then chokeslam somemore \m/ rawk on... haha

HEE.

gna pwn some ass yo.

CB

2010-02-24T04:49:00.000-08:00

I LIKE MAD PPL=] hahas.

To: whichever moron who comes here to follow the (fragmented) story of my life... thanks, but your dumb... I hardly ever post. If you still come here all this time, congrats! Give yourself 1 retard clap! lol. Either you are seriously retarded or you love me with all your heart=]

LOLOLOLOLOLOLLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim Osel Lim wooooooooooooooooooooooo0o0o0o0o0oo0o0o0o0o0ots! I rawk... yeah right.

Btw. The only serious update:

Guess what? Today I was on the way home on a bus, there came along this CJC girl. One word. Gorgeous. hah. so chiooooooo can. lol. and she stood in front of me, facing me... for whatever reason i don't know... her back end was facing the aisle and i was like o0||| lol and tried not to stare (and drool <- may not be too extreme) hah. Then all the time I had to talk to myself to look calm and force my sorry self to look away. It was kinda like a torture. hah. like placing a goddamn mouth watering pizza with melting cheese in front of someone who is starving and eating (in this case ****ing) it is deemed as a crime. WTH. haizz. lol. but she was mesmerizing. lucky i wasnt TOO mesmerized. lol. Finally, it was time to say goodbye (WTH i hadnt even said hi) lol. It was my stop... I went to the EZ LINK CARD DETECTING BEEPER, and looked back. GUESS WHAT AGAIN... our eyes met... woah,.,, lol.

and thats all goodnight. YEAH YEAH YEAH! *Freeze Frame*

BYE U GODDAMNED MØTH3R TITHER!

STILL HERE?

I KNOW U LOVE ME...

LOOKIN FOR A ICEPOP TO SUCK?

I HAVE JUST WHAT YOU NEED! :D >=]

COME MY HOUSE AND I'll LET U HAVE MY ICEPOP TO SUCK!!!

2009-12-29T05:14:00.000-08:00

Its always at the end of the run, at the last dash where i give up, breakdown.

I wont do it again.

2009-12-10T05:03:00.000-08:00

10yrs later, by December 2019, i will, hopefully, get my Doctor proof,cert, or whatever u call it.

Hopefully. (Hopefully the STUPID Mayan calendar is wrong and the world doesn't end in 2012)

Then i'll be independent and free to go whereever.

Then bong can find oue.

New Bands, and how to be one...

2009-11-18T23:58:00.000-08:00

Hi people.

Surfed around during the past few days and found out about this new band called We Are The In Crowd, originally called The In Crowd. They just got signed to Hopeless Records, the label for All Time Low and many other bands...

Here's one of their songs, For The Win:

Quite nice, the soft part, but there are many many areas for improvement,in my opinion.

like the vocal intro they should either Auto Tune all the way and have a robotic effect or have a pure, natural vocal. Also, there's a part " ...conducting social symphonies..." where the lyrics don't quite fit in. I now they want to " tell a story instead of filling the song with sugar-coated, meaningless lyrics" but that part really sucks.

You probably would not have heard of this band, their song views on youtube are only like 14,000+ views, more than my song(4,000+ zzz), which is why I'm introducing them. So do listen to them and tell me your views=]

L.ove for Music

2009-11-08T04:13:00.000-08:00

Zzz. Went to buy next year's books today. Went to bras basah to buy (bra?) lols jk buy 2nd hand... Wonder why its called bras basah lol....

Anyway went to dean's live journal... lols. saw the real blog at last ==

ANW feel his post abt money and homeliness very familiar... like tt was me in pri sch and lower sec... zzz.

Empathy.

2009-11-01T03:56:00.000-08:00

The world is full of snobs, lackeys and fake friends. Good thing I have some good friends at least...

2009-10-31T23:24:00.000-07:00

My heart still aches, every time i see the name or the face of that particular person.

I just can't control it.

2009-10-25T04:54:00.000-07:00

I cut my hair. LJM dean and LLH saw le. Those 2 boys, i mean 2 out of those 3 boys mentioned laughed like fools==

Its short in front, like real short short like->

then back and sideburn almost same like last time...

like this

Panic! at the Disco!!! haha sad they broke up.... sounds gay huh.

today played ball.

just like anyother sunday.

2009-10-22T05:26:00.000-07:00

Great Disappointment.

Today I shall talk about the great disappointment, a sub-story of a boy seeking the Holy Grail, the sacred Sangreal.

I could not describe that moment, when I sat, stoned , in the vast stone medieval library. I thought I had finally found the clue, the last key to another set of clues that would eventually lead to the Grail, as the ancient documents hinted. It was just another pitfall in the long arduous route set up by the Prieuré de Sion. I thought I had it, the last number. All the clues seemed to point at the number 61, and to my elation my calculations showed that it fit the criteria for it to be the Holy Number. Its results with my formula was between 75 to 95, and was a rational number that has endless decimal places in decimal form.

After all the elation, the mental celebration, I saw, with the aid of a study glass, that the peculiar full stop beside the was in fact a minute "-13" discreetly marked out, undoubtedly by the Prieuré de Sion.

The sinking feeling almost overwhelmed me. I thought I heard Mary Magdalene's muffled laughter. And I felt stupid getting excited over a number when I had not checked it thoroughly.

Haha. I wasnt Disappointed over my marks, but the blow I received when the truth dawned me.

Goddamnit.

Nevermind as Deany Boy said I already did well.

Hm.

Tomorrow would be the gayest moment of my life. I would be wearing HOT PINK for the Cambodia thingy== damn.

Anw tonight gonna sleep early. bye~ teehee.

2009-10-21T06:38:00.000-07:00

Hm. Why? Why do I have to join in the 2 retards on the quest for the Holy Grail?

The Holy Grail that might not be really that sacred after all. I realised that many things were kept away from me. And that I was kept in the dark, all along, not trusted by these " friends". He wrote these kinda things too. But I feel I should be the one.

Got and idea. Just need to know if the statue of liberty or other feminine statues can be sighted from the Central Park in New York. Its this boy playing with his dog there.

Hm. Anyway here are the EOY results.

~EL P1P1- 20/30

P1P2- 18/30

P2P1- 17/25

P2P2- 14/25

* EL should be aiming A1, so I shouldn't gloat*

~Bio P1- 34/40

p2- 55.5/80

*Overall should be A1, but just barely, Haiz, standard drop like shit falling from anus to toilet bowl(nice and crude simile!)*

~Chem P1- 34/40

P2- forgot.

* 1st time my chem A1!! haha. I hate memorising standard answers==*

~Phy P1- 34/40

P2- 70/80

*people think this is gay but nahh. It actually sucks. Loads of careless== tot P1 full marks*

others coming later=]

Anyways. For me its 0% chance and I know it. No point.

Sort of coded. *read Da Vinci=]*

BYe~

2009-10-17T06:24:00.000-07:00

EOEOY suddenly dun feel so exciting or anything==

Thought I would understand it now but nah. Still don't.

Well never mind. Get over it and live on.

Feel so

Haizz.

Changed my playlists songs.

Bye.

2009-10-16T07:51:00.000-07:00

EOEOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YEAH! (yeah!) YEAH! (yeah!) * five* *freeze frame*

yea. then nth to do.

wanna freeze there forever. haiz.

Feel so empty.

Anw my dad leaving for Nepal tmr. gonna send him off so not goin PT ='(

NVM.

can play XBOX le.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

-EOY-

2009-09-23T07:51:00.000-07:00

Haiz. Promise to start studying now.

With more enthusiasm!!!!

Other things KIV till after EOY...

Good luck people!

just another post

2009-09-19T05:59:00.000-07:00

Hello; Good bye.

I just want to know the real reason why, yeah.

Haiz.

Cant get over u.

Today I was on the North South line on my way to TTSHospital for my jabs for the cambodia trip. Well, memories came bac to me. That time when we went out==

Anyways,

=.= and _|_ please identify yourself/yourselves.

Bye.

BOOHOO ;[

2009-09-16T07:20:00.000-07:00

Its over.

No more us.

No more hearing about other guys through those lips.

No more getting ignored.

More time for doing my own stuff.

Time to forget=]

2009-09-14T05:11:00.000-07:00

I dun deserve this. Or maybe I do?

Maybe I'll just stay with my frens.

Maybe we're torn apart.

Maybe the timing is beating our hearts....

We're empty.

Maybe someone likes to see this.

Maybe I've got a rough idea who that someone is.

...

haiz

2009-09-13T06:17:00.001-07:00

I'm sorry. Maybe i think too much.

hmm. reminds me of heaven can wait by WTK=]

HEAVEN CAN WAIT
Here's a song for the nights
I think too much and
Here's a song when I imagine us together
Here's a song for when we talk too much
And I forget my words

Heaven can wait up high in the sky
It's you and I
Heaven can wait deep down in your eyes
I'm yours tonight
Lay your heart next to mine
I feel so alive
Tell me you want me to stay, forever
'Cause heaven can wait

Here's a song for the one who stole my heart
And ran so far that cupid couldn't catch her
Here's a song for the kid who aims so high
He shot her down

Heaven can wait up high in the sky
It's you and I
Heaven can wait deep down in your eyes
I'm yours tonight
Lay your heart next to mine
I feel so alive
Tell me you want me to stay forever
'Cause heaven can wait

Here's a song for the nights I drink too much
And spill my words

Heaven can wait up high in the sky
It's you and I
Heaven can wait deep down in your eyes
I'm yours tonight
Lay your heart next to mine
I feel so alive
Tell me you want me to stay forever
'Cause heaven can wait

'Cause heaven can wait
'Cause heaven can wait

***********************************

Maybe. Coincidence?

I saw this when i went to see Remy's "All my friends"

haiz see the top left corner==

Maybe I'm going crazy. Even when i dream.

Bye.

2009-09-07T05:00:00.000-07:00

Something PQQ told me really pissed me off.

What do you really want?

Maybe I've made a mistake. Because I realised I don't really know you. Was it too hasty a decision?Should I have observed a little longer? Because you really hurt me. On the outside of course I gotta put up a brave front, I'm a guy after all. But i ache whenever I think of that aspect.

Is it natural? I don't see others doing that, so i don't see why you're like that.

Haiz but since it started already I should just bear with it.

Don't wanna be like one of the "F4 of 3C" , the playboy 1, which Sarah Palin called me==|||

Its an insult to be "F4" with people like yiying, siofan. And F4 are supposed to be good friends. haiyo.

Retarded.

Maybe she just wants to have fun yeah. Should not be too bothered. Smile. The show must go on.

Empty spaces, what are we waiting for
Abandoned places, I guess we know the score
On and on, does anybody know what we are looking for
Another hero, another mindless crime
Behind the curtain in the pantomime
Hold the line, does anybody want to take it anymore

The show must go on, The show must go on
Inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking, but my smile... still stays on

Whatever happens I'll leave it all to chance
Another heartache, another failed romance
On and on, does anybody know what we are living for
I guess I'm learning (I'm learning)
I must be warmer now
I'll soon be turning (turning, turning) round the corner now
Outside the dawn is breaking
But inside in the dark I'm aching to be free

The show must go on, the show must go on, yeah
Oooh, inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking, but my smile... still stays on
Yeah oh, oh, oh

My soul is painted like the wings of butterflies
Fairy tales of yesterday will grow but never die
I can fly, my friends

The show must go on, yeah yeah
The show must go on, go on, go on
I'll face it with a grin
I'm never giving in, on with the show

I'll top the bill, I'll overkill
I have to find the will to carry on
On with the, on with the show

The show must go on, go on, go on...

Hmm... Some background info about the MV its "Show Must Go On" by Queen.

Its made I think when the lead singer is dead/ dying, not sure which... Well he was gay and

normally i don't really like gggays but Queen's songs are nice, some of them.

yea.

Thats all for now.

Hope it'll get better when school reopens.

EMOBOY once more.

Sunday

2009-09-06T06:41:00.000-07:00

Played basetball at kallang court just now with Dean Kim LLH and their brothers.

There were some other people playing there so we joined them. Was freaking retarded.

Got 1 NOOB solo all the way when got so many people to pass to. I was in their team and i dun know why they chose me when they did not make use of my height. I was tall, open and near the rim all the freaking time but they did not pass==

Haiz...

Speaking of not knowing why I was picked, reminds me of 2 people. Why was I chosen??

Well the first said I was the magnet while she was the metal. The other said feeling. Haiz.

And I still cant convince someone i was serious and not a freakking hongster. Crap.

Anyway who gave people rights to judge me? Who gave people rights to say i would hurt others?

It does'nt affect anything except the fact that it pisses me off. Because I know, only I can judge myself. Dean is right in not judging as its not his business. He only gives concern 'cos he's a friend. And you people should too.

Yeah.

Haiyo... Sadded la.

So long.

Reflections and doubts

2009-08-30T02:24:00.000-07:00

The way ahead is shrouded with mist. I have a slight confusion in my feelings of Meng.

Is she serious?

I don't really know. Thats only one of the factors contributingto my stress. So many more areas and aspects contributing to my distress. I feel so small. So unsure of myself. So unlike before.

I kinda wish i was the old overconfident me again. The one that smiles foolishly in the face of tests, exams, and new concepts, not giving a damn.

The me I erased in hope of a better attitude to carry on with in life.

Seems like its a mistake.

Btw. my results:

Math -Full

aMaths -32/40

Bio -forgot==

Chem -30/50(crap)

Physics -42/50(nothing to be proud of. was badly done in my opinion)

SS -16/30

History -17/30

EL -??

CL -??

hm. Had a retarded session with CHANkwantong the other day for not doing TONS of CL homework.

I realised I was in the wrong. But still Chan's attitude pissed me off. It still pisses me now.

He likes to thin he's never wrong, to act like he's the boss. Chan the Boss. haha. Chan the Balls more like. He and his bloody jiaobin.

ARGH.

Forget about it. That's not helping.

ANYWAYS. The reflections.

ft. LJM's post...

"To: Mdm Cheah

I was thinking about this a few weeks or days ago. First impression counts. Somehow, I don't think this apply to you from my point of view. I remembered the first day in Secondary 3. A couple of us was late for your lesson. You scolded us. In my heart, I was thinking what a bitch you were. The sound of the bell was so soft that who could have heard it over the din made by the Secondary 3? Anyway, you have been teaching us for like 8 months already. Just the first few months, I could see that everything I thought about you was totally wrong. You're an asshole when you scold. But when you are in good mood(which is almost every time I see you), you are so humorous that you can made the whole class laugh. Now, I'm forever looking forward to your lessons. Because of you(and Miss Sophia Yap), I'm in love with English now. I'm aiming for a B3 for my 'O' level paper. If I can achieve better, I'll be glad to do so!"

Hm. I so agree with that. Great minds think alike, but fools seldom differ. Seems like the latter is quite true.

I kinda realised Mdm Cheah's seemingly "bitchy" action then was just a bluff. That and her menancing glare whenever one forgets his homework.

Its just to make us scared. I believe Mdm Cheah is actually a nice person,but wants to control us better.

So that we would take her seriously.

Holy shit.

Do you realise how pathetic that is now?

Do you realise how unspeakable we are as students?

To need a teacher to scare us before giving respect.

To behave otherwise to teachers who seem tame.

Like Mr Gui.

He's kind on the inside and out.

His jokes relieves the boredom of lessons.

We are the lucky generation.

可是我们就是身在福中不知福。

老师本来就是该尊敬的。

我们不是这样。

老师不凶我们就欺负。

老师凶我们就恨老师。

你们这样做要老师怎么做人啊？

Haiz. Wanna improve my CL, so I'm starting to blog in chinese too.

....

On to my doubts.

*Whats wrong Laihong?

*Did we do something wrong?

*Is she angry, jealous or what?

&AhMeng

*I dunno how to say la.

*I might over-reacting.

*But I'm very scared she's just playing with me.

*I think I don't really understand her.

*I don't think she realises how much i hurt when she does that.

*I can't stand it....

*I'm sorry.

*Still waiting for her to be online. She said ok but she's not here yet.

Moving on now. I'm gonna off my com soon. Waiting another 30mins to an hour.

So I gonna end here.

Till the next time,

Bye;再见；sayonara;

Thankkyouu;谢谢；aligato

†~This Sad World~†

2009-07-17T18:45:00.000-07:00

Life Science Presentation is on 15July. We gonna wear the prefect ties lols. cant imagine myself in that and tucking in my shirt(for the 1st time?)...

I know that its best that we chiong finish the research and report so that we can refine and edit till the report is in the best form. I also know that the deadline is coming up== But i dunno why, even when i have time, i still slack and play all day. I still owe homework that has been overdue for weeks. I thank the teachers for their patience and apologise for the extra stress, extra work. Feel that we shud learn to appreciate teachers, even if we are not favourite students, and even when we dun like them.( that was so hypocritic(?) , well just so full of hypocrisy, considering the way i'll behave wif tan siew seng as my teacher...)

Well, just try to be nice to them. When we grow up and look back it might be too late to say thank you.

Hmmm.... went around reading blogs and hidden posts... Quite saddening really. Quite alot of friends were sad, depress, vexed, going mad...

$^&*%^&* the world...

After reading a particular post, if I'm not wrong it was partly directed to me, I feel that I don't really know who I am. (reminds me of a Jackie Chan movie)

really. I thought i was idiotic and irritating, then i got praised. Just when i get big headed, I was insulted and told off. When i was down friends cheered me up. When I got attached to friends, thinking I'm important to them, I read a post saying Friends aren't pets, neither are they shadows.

I'm confused.

Anyway, back to the subject about the other post, I regret that, even in the physical comfort of modern day singapore, people are still in one way or another sad, hurt and mixed-up...
How i wish i could help tt person...
I really wanna do just that... but my courage is always god-damned failing me at the last moment... my insides would get all feverish before i board the god-damned bus...

ARGGGGGGGHGHHHHHHHH#$%^&*$%^&$%^$%^$^%#$^#$^&*()$%^&*()@#$^%&*()_$#^%&*()†Í×ÍÌÏô}Ý4S饢ez??镦縘

Haizz...

think im going slightly mad...

hmm...

anyway... back to life science research...

Till the next time i blog(who nows when)...

bye~

Boring~

2009-06-04T20:20:00.000-07:00

Now in com lab... supposed to look for antibac stuff for life science... the web is quite useless when it comes to finding specific info==

Anyways the Class Chalet was quite boring~ cant even sing==

so BORING!!

gonna start on holiday hw soon... hmmm...

Damn LJM to hell lor...
anyway it was a joke...
but i guess its still a mistake...

L

Funny?

2009-05-24T00:27:00.000-07:00

Nothing to do!!!!

The exams are over, and now imjust disappointed wif my results==

EL/D7/47( 1st time in my life i ever failed compo... holy crap)

CL/??/??( didnt bother to see when i saw tt my EL failed)

AM/B4/58(maybe is A2... depends on MFB)

EM/A1/91.4( hehheh winlaihong by 0.4... but i guess it doesnt count,wad wif all the rounding down==)

Bio/A1/around 75( not sure, got some error wif e paper)

Phy/A1/ 81(damn! 6 marks to 1st in class==)

Chem/B4/60 on the dot...( drop standard? wtf no time finish paper la __)

SS/22/40 / lol sbq 18, seq 4

Hist/25/40 /lols too sbq 18, seq 7

As i was saying... nth to do... so went around peep's blogs

saw some getting more and more common....

hey if u have this no offense...

just tt i findit hilarious,

it goes something like,

"Hate. Misery. Jealousy. Pain. Looks. Meanings. Pain again."

LOLS

sounds a bit retarded and senseless if u noe wad i mean...

But to counter this one mightjust say its art...

Yeahyeah...

Artis such.a.subjective.thing.tt every retarded thing can be art....

This is a MAD world...........................................................................

How feelings can change like crap in extremely short periods oftime...

How the sense of right and wrong can make people feel freakin'guilty abt wad they've done...

damn!

we're all damned to suffer by existing... unless we canfindawayout...

death
is
not
the
end

==

how.i.wish.it.is......

lol.my.keyboard.spoil.again?!

damn...

bye.til.the.next.time-which.is.when.i.feel.like.it...no.wonder.no.one.comes.here==

2009-04-09T07:02:00.001-07:00

My blog is so dead...

2009-03-15T01:37:00.000-07:00

Returned from a game of battlefield2 wet==
im feeling damned confused,i dunno... maybe i did not know this?
wad am i raving about?
im all mixed up==
L

2009-03-04T04:45:00.001-08:00

Holy shit.
My CMT is a great dissappointment.
Not a total dissappointment, lucky me, but nevertheless SUCKISH~
EL 20/30
MT 62%
E-Math 37/40
A-Math Dunno yet, but sure A1
Physics 82%
Chemistry B3
Biology B4

HOLYSHIT!!!!

dunno la... why is this so?????????
I aced Bio, Chem in the last test, w/o studying...
And now, chiong like shit, get shit==
IRONY==

==
L

2009-02-12T04:30:00.000-08:00

Wanted to post our pics...
Everyone is making a big hooha about us tgt...
==
but Eu are cute XD
L

2009-02-09T05:32:00.000-08:00

walao... today many ppl da jing xiao guai...
suan me==
L

2009-02-08T03:33:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentines Day people!! (in advance)

=]
stay young and happy

and the main purpose of this post...
Update..(for eu)
hahas bb

L

p.s. my spacebar seem to be ok again... for now i think..==

Prefects

2009-01-30T16:06:00.000-08:00

I.come.to.a.conclusion.that.most.prefects.are.hypocrites.
Yep.you.heard.right.HYPOCITES...

cant.believe.them.

and.singapore.is.not.democratic.as.you.think.

==

zui.jing.bi.jiao.fan.

==
L

2009-01-26T20:07:00.000-08:00

Oi KASUMI! Who do u think i like huh??? u madpherson... ==
im mad...

NewGenre

2009-01-22T05:14:00.000-08:00

My.keyboard.got.problem...cannot.hit.space.bar...sometimes.can.but.like.all.random.
lol.is.real.im.not.a.idiot.nth.to.do

lol.anyway.goin.into.pop.rock.genre...

anyway.not.talking.much.very.hard.sia.fullstop.become.spacebar.

haha.bcom.like.ongzhen's.post...
L.signing.off=]

2009-01-21T06:09:00.000-08:00

Hey ppl.......
undergoing more STRESS....
from class and wushu
anyway i've been chionging my AQ World account...
here are some pics...

argh.... why alt printscreen cannot paste here??? nvm... so life is complicated for me...
ok
bye
haha

2009-01-17T03:40:00.001-08:00

Too... tired... and sick.. to blog...

2009-01-09T04:12:00.000-08:00

ok. here's an update on school and my life...

well.. in English i managed to escape the presentation for 2 times... =] heehee so now
got a whole wkend to prepare... =]

Then there is a sad/funny(?) thing that happened...
Larry, officially valery, is out of my class/school... and it can be kinda consider mr Tan Poh Pin's fault.....

wad happened was that TanPP was announcing to the graduationg classes abt the visit to Poly open hses... And Larry tot that everyone in MJR will go to poly...
apparently Larry did not ask abt it, but called his father back in Indonesia... and he might be back there alr... Not v. sure 'bout tt part..
and gonna post the latest song im into, Hero/Heroine:

It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time
Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And it's so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie
You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicatedI was so jaded
And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screamingI feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?
(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicatedI was so jaded
(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdownAnd then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jade

END

2009-01-05T06:14:00.000-08:00

1st Official School day...

Got:
A Math HW
Physics HW
Chinese HW
And lots and loads of FILES!!!!

well, its kinda tough here in 3C... Or maybe my brain is kinda rusty...
Havent been doin speed thinkin for quite some time

Well, by end of Chinese lesson i was havin a headache...
crappin distractin...
Lessons until 4:05 nia...

AND tmr Still got WUSHU zzz...

Grrr.. So sian

==

bye
oseL

hi spammer

2009-01-03T03:32:00.000-08:00

to that recent spamming of my tagbox...

well, i wanna tell u that , well, im all smiles... no u arnt seein things... im all smiles=] lol...

LALALA u cant make me mad... LALALA im NOT ANGRY... lols...

heehee... who gives a shit to u man...

and im L ... nth u can do abt it... im L harharhar

First day of school...

2009-01-02T02:42:00.000-08:00

First day of school... boliao nia... prefer the old sch lor...
now so faaaar

got loads of new ppl in class... well... so good to sit beside my friends... hope it would stay tt way...

got some foreigners too... lol... "international students"... sian... PE wednesday...
then lessons until 4 pm... wth lor...

just now nth todo go read some ppl's blog... sian... so long... then my so short...

maybe i aint born to blog... lol wad am i gibbering?

L pics

2008-12-28T02:54:00.000-08:00

Long time never update...
Long time= whole holiday
==
So boliao then wanna post some pics of L, Ryuzaki>

Baby L and Light.... cute

CUTE!

Haagen-daz... lols

...somehow this pic reminds me of yugioh...

L in Shinigami clothes... Cool arh...

2008-12-28T00:57:00.000-08:00

Well, wanted to tag everyone... but Lazy...

So now want to wish everyone

GOOD LUCK to everyone in the coming year...

_|_

2008-09-28T00:55:00.000-07:00

Em0ing again...

L feels that he had failed yet again... wth... That's the pain of liking someone who may not like you back... L is so damned depressed... He's inconsolable... Its so exasperating... He cant blame her... Its her decision... Her will... He can still try, and may succeed, but he's very disheartened... The coming exams aren't helping him get his mind off her...

L needs her....
L needs her to fill this empty hole in his life...
L is begging her, you, to help him... be with him... he cant take it much longer...I Love You but you dont know... how should i tell you? howhowhowhowhow???
plz come to me... fall into my arms...

please...
L

Today...

2008-09-25T05:08:00.000-07:00

Hais... So much crappy and unwanted stuff happened happened on thursday of L's life...

His FT, Mr M, had joked that 2C littered the rubbish that was thrown in the classroom but it was those who had went to the classroom for oral... And those people were 2E's girls and some from 2D... some of his classmates were then upset, which in turn upsetted some of his friends...

Then JieyinG was abit emo... he saw on her blog... but he knew she was not the only one...

For himself, he had gotten LRC on topof the CHLRC he served... wtf... L hates that nosy TSS... freakin' m0ron she is... crap her...

L did not know why, but he was sad that JieyinG and some of his classmates feel sad...

L wishes to tell anyone who reads this that MR M WAS IN A BAD MOOD AS EDZUAN HAD CALLED HIM GAY...

L feels sorry for all...

and i love you do you know? just can't say it out... i think i'm a coward... and all that...
adios amigos,
L

Tan Siew Seng spoiled my day

2008-09-23T07:14:00.002-07:00

Tan Siew Seng...

Just another mor0n in L's life...

Holy crap- she was such a ***** today... L was sent to CHLRC just for not changing into school uniform after PE... L and his friend, DC, were sent to CHLRC but that retard of a teacher, Tan Siew Seng, had not sent a girl, who did not change too, to the same fate...

Not that it was painful... In fact, it was much more joyful than spending 1 hour listening to her crap... But what was most frustrating was that, it wasn't even her business... Come to think about it, she had been nosing into Mr M (L's form teacher)'s duties... Crap her, he thought...

Then after his CHLRC, L and DC bumped into that freak of nature, TSS... She was such a dumb****... She demanded why L and DC were still not changed, adding that they had not learnt their lesson... L was dumbfounded by the dumbness of that question... They had just stepped out of punishment...

L was like ...
__ 0_________o __

lols...

wtclahtssgodielar!!!,
L

ldgh;dfjh

2008-09-22T03:57:00.000-07:00

L felt better...

He had walked home from school after he had lunch... He could almost feel that swelling disappointment about what had took place that afternoon. He heard that there was to be science consultation that afternoon and wanted to stay behind awhile to ask a few questions but one of them had said that he and another of his friend was "extra" as they had not informed before hand...

L thought better than to dwell on the negative side. Perhaps it was all those pleasant events that had kept him from falling to the dark side of himself.

L had found out that Sisiew lives ust opposite him. She was quite suprised that he had walked home... She herself took a bus... L found it amusing... He was, after all, in Wushu, and had gone through things and routines that is far more tiring than a mere 3km walk...

L had gotten a whoopin' 22/30 for his english test... A personal and class(?) best... He thought of typing it out and posting but then was just too lazy...

L was hungry and is gonna have his dinner soon...
So he bids farewell...

Imnotgininupyet...
L

Sian|||

2008-09-21T02:12:00.000-07:00

L.
He was sitting at his study desk. L was watching Starwars: Return of the Jedi... Only 4 of his msn contacts are online... None could entertain him at the moment... He decided to blog on about himself...

He bumped into Dean at the bustop at aljunied MRT station... The bunch of them ( him and a few other "ear 'oles") were going to get together to do their biology presentation on Sexual Reproduction. He was not bothered with them... His "friend" Xuan Kai was not going... He had hung up on L a couple of times when L had tried to make head or tail of whether he was going... L felt... Betrayed?

It hurted when people, especially his "best friend", ignored him... As L typed away recounting, he felt that some of his "friends" would think that he was somewhat soft to feel like this but he didn't care... He felt dejected... That was all that mattered...

All those taunts about him being weak, nerdy, vegetarian... It was starting to hurt after all his fake indifference... He was sick and tired of it all... He wants to let go and move on...

But it was out of his power...

He went to HER blog. Found out that she still loves her ex-boyfriend... Felt damned sad... L knew it was an hopeless situation... But he can't force himself to give up... No, not L, like what his sis had said... Love was not something you should give up on... So he'll wait... Wait for her...

nvgonnagiveup,
L

BEWARE: Exams are just round the corner...

2008-09-20T04:18:00.000-07:00

Yes... exams are here, and won't be gone until about another month's time. He is stresssed up, yet not doing much in preparation for his end of year exams... He feels that there is some wrong in what his form teacher had said, about the "final lap" being all about yourself as an individual. He thinks that it is just too selfish... But this was what the world was like... Majority of the humans, are selfish.

In fact, he thinks that everyone, even he himself, was kind of selfish. His teachers, his classmates and "friends"... He is confused, not knowing what to do... Was all that he had thought about, all that he did and have done useless?

He does'nt want to keep ranting on and on negatively, following the lead of this whole dark world... He wants to break free... Instead he is constricted to his puny body, uncapable of doing anything... following one of his friend's attempt, he had considered ending this nonsense before but his thoughts were brave, but his heart hurts when he thought how his loved ones will hurt for him.

Why is the world like that? So ruthless, cruel, and worst of all, filled with all those rotting lies, deceit, and BETRAYAL... He got stirred emotionally as he came to this... He felt betrayed... By his class... It was all lies... that unity... it was scam... it was nothing... as his Form Teacher had said, it was every man for himself... ... Yeah, so let the battle begin, he thought...

Added playlist and all-

2008-08-25T05:19:00.000-07:00

Hi...
Today changed LRC date...
Then i wan to run 2.4... but end up stopping after 3 rounds off the sch field...
I've added a playlist... all my av. songz...

then tmr skipping the most of wushu... go LRC...
just becoz i came to sku l8er then 7.40 ==
crap...
then nth much liao...

~.- buhbyes~
LtS

2008-08-24T01:25:00.000-07:00

New look~New address~
I've moved~~~~
Yea... dotZ
-.~

Not much to say~

buhbyes~